Of Material Things

Was with Ma in a tour of duty ferrying her from her office in Jalan Duta to Hartamas to TTDI to Bangsar to Granma's in Ampang to Putrajaya.

It was at Bangsar (Bangsar Village to be exact) when I was faced with difficult choices. What to buy... ?

- Paramore's Brand New Eyes album? (RM39.90)
- Micheal Critchton's Pirate Latittudes (RM69.90)
- Stephen King's Under the Dome (RM89.90 pretty cheap for a very thick hardcover which can kill with a good whallop)
- A brand new Aliens series (RM16.90 x 3. Dunno how long I havta wait for the ramainders)
- Save for marriage (~RM30-50K. Whenever that will be)

Except for the last, the rest are all material stuff which is really not a matter of life or death. I can live without them and others too... It was only this morning when I saw beggars lined up waiting for whatever crumbs of alms they are able to recieve did I realized how materialistic I am.

While I thought of getting comic books and CDs, they thought of how to survive the day, how to feed their malnourished, FTT (failure to thrive) kids.

Masyallah. I always thought myself as being one of the least materialistic among my colleagues (I dont really care about car brands, clothing, techs, big houses, whatever) but mebe I was wrong. I am materialistic in my own way. In a very insignificant way.

Allah has been graceful to provide me with necessities and more. And yet I failed to realize that I WANT more which others are very much deprived of. I don't need all these things I listed. Why am I bound to all these needless things? Why are we bound to our desires? Why don't we instead share our resources with others who are less fortunate or better yet use our resources to pool for a greater achievements for the ummah? Why don't we invest in the construction of a better society which needs the resources rather than spending them on novels, music and CDs that only satisfy my own useless lust, large conglomerates and entertainers (Micheal Crichton's dead btw) already full pockets?

In the end yesterday I did become materialistic and conceded to my lust by buying:

- A pirated Silent Hill: Homecoming game for PC (RM15)
- and 2 crossaints and a wholemeal grain bread at a swedish bakery (~RM15)

Ok the last wasn't materialistic sangat.

I guess we all need to sacrifice not just livestock this Raya Adha, but we also some of our inner lust for materialistic stuff that will not benefit us at all for whats to come at our END.

edited. full of grammatical errors it hurts.