Still in the Womb

I just read an excerpt from an article by Malik Badri which conincides with my "favourite posting", O&G. Thought I'd share my thoughts which was actually his.

Look at your umbilicus. Remember what it once was?

Our plug. Our life support

We started in our mothers womb (Bless our mothers), connected to her for nutrients, waste dumping, oxygen, metabolic regulations. We were dependant, parasites living in our own cramped cozy world. While we were in the womb, we never knew what was out there. I suppose that's why we cry the time we come out, because we are scared and unfamiliar with this new life.

Now is not that different.

We still are in a womb. The world we live in is the uterus, the vessel, our body we live in is our placenta, connected by an invisible plug.

We are still dependant.

While we are here, we don't know what's in the next world when the plug is pulled. Then our vessels will be shed, useless, buried. Then we will journey to the next in which the outcome depends on what our lives before is like.

The moment we indulge and forget about Allah, He will make us forget about the next world and the purpose of life in this world we live in. Nauzubillah that does not happen to us.

Our plugs can be pulled at any time. When Khiamat (Judgement Day) comes, it will be like a uterine rupture only a zillion times worst..

Birthday Wishes and Current Status

Hi Guys,

First of all thanks to dad for the broadband and my bros for coming all the way to bring it here. Aku cam malas nak go shopping and bli satu. So this is indeed a convenience.

So Im back Online!!!

I dont normally celebrate birthdays but this is a record for me in receiving birthday wishes. Tqs guys.

How have I been? Ill try to sum it up.

KK, Sabah is a very nice place to live in. I really really am considering to stay here long term depending on several factors. That is how much KK has an impression on me.

Work wise however is a bit different. The first few weeks especially during tagging I was in depression mode. I didnt know what to do and started to doubt my choice of doing medicine and even considered quitting. It is that stressful or at least for me. But now I kinda get the hang of a few stuff working has become not only tolerable but fun in some cases. I try to keep myself updated by studying online and getting to know interesting cases to share with my other colleague across the sea. KK, Sabah is a hot bed for interesting cases. Here eclampsia is common, and abruption happens everyday. Goiters are so damn huge! And the number of birth per months here is extravagant! last month the hospital broke record of over 1000 over birth. Not sure about other hospitals but it was crazy here.

It's not all work life. Still watch movies, read novels, and go brdwatching and pretty soon outdoors. Sabah provide that kind of opportunity to river raft, jungle trek, caving, or just relax on an island or whatever.

With Allah's blessing Ill try to be the best I can over here and achieve all that I sort to achieve. Right now at this level I am aware that I am weak in many ways when it comes to work and other things but I shall try to improve.

Am not coming back for Raya, though I am coming back for convocation in early October for a few days.

Again thanks guys. Hope to keep in touch!

Its been awhile

Wow its been awhile since I blogged.

I hav this sense of deja vu. Like wat iv been doing before this is unreal. Now is reality.

I guess ill be blogging again. Usually during long toilet breaks. Its called the thinking seat anyway (shrug)

Thisll keep me sane.

Its been awhile

Wow its been awhile since I blogged.

I hav this sense of deja vu. Like wat iv been doing before this is unreal. Now is reality.

I guess ill be blogging again. Usually during long toilet breaks. Its called the thinking seat anyway (shrug)

Thisll keep me sane.

Its been awhile

Wow its been awhile since I blogged.

I hav this sense of deja vu. Like wat iv been doing before this is unreal. Now is reality.

I guess ill be blogging again. Usually during long toilet breaks. Its called the thinking seat anyway (shrug)

Thisll keep me sane.

Still On the Road

Breaks coming to an end.

I've been on the road almost all around Malaysia. With family, friends, mostly alone.

The beauty of Malaysia's ambitious skyscrapers, carpet emerald forests, limestones, and still more roads give me the much needed solace I need. Much needed reflection I desired. Not in the city though, which I so long to escape.

I take off lika bird, spreading wings free. Sometimes nostalgia accompanied me, a lot of times thoughts and sleep. Yes, I sleep along the way. Dreaming of what lies ahead. Dreaming of what I shall become.

And I wondered. What dreams am I trying to achieve with my constant wanderings? Am I on the right track? Or have I derailed?

It was only later near the end of this break I discovered another road I've been walking on. The road to discover my inner self, what my purpose in this world is. It's not that I didn't know, just that I have forgotten, derailed.

I get and got lost along the way. Both roads. I make wrong stops. Bust a tire or two. And things never get easy at times. The road can be harsh when it wants to be. But worst is always when I get lost. And I forget, that when I'm lost, I should refer to a map. Or better yet, ask for directions. 'He' provides good directions. It's a matter of whether we ask for it or not.

Don't be foolish. We need Guidance.

So where's the end?

Death.

We live to die. And live again. Another road awaits us after death.

This life/world/dream we live in is just a means to an end. Our end here.

I don't think it goes on forever. There will be a permanent stop. And by the time we do reach the End, have our journey prepared us enough to face what lies thereafter?

I'm exiting, only to enter a new broad highway. Again this will be a journey of a lifetime. Though how much time I have in my life is unknown. Lifetime is a misnomer. It sounds so long. It's not.

I won't be arrogant.

I'll seek Guidance and Directions along the way.

Because I wanna reach the end gloriously. Or die trying.

New Blog: Les'ouseau

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